“I woke up Wednesday morning feeling…what’s the word? Is there a word? I’m not sure there is a word to describe it. Tuesday night, I was in shock. I was angry. I was devastated. In 16 years I have never felt these feelings after an … Continue reading Let Us March
In a world where everyone is just sooo busy this seems to be extremely accurate… There are very few people in my life who would meet me for dinner with a couple days’ notice and not cancel at the last second. There are even fewer that … Continue reading Priorities
We, as humans, are not perfect. We are quite the opposite. Unfortunately for us, everyone expects perfection. Even if you think you don’t, you do. People expect level-headed, rational, perfectly shaped, and proper individuals. People expect you not to throw a temper-tantrum, or have cellulite, or be … Continue reading Imperfections
Oh the possibilities, right? Sometimes I feel as if I’m hanging on by a thread, and maybe I am. Hanging on to hope, dreams, the possibility of someday waking up and all of the time spent will be time *well* spent. That maybe things could be different. Does … Continue reading Second Chances
I don’t have to justify myself to anyone even when society is screaming at me to do so right in my face. I’m exhausted in a way that my mind and body are drained. I’m beyond the point of being tired and no amount of … Continue reading Justification
2015 that is. Going into 2015 I thought I’d accomplish a lot personally and professionally. Basically, it laughed in my face and said, “I’ll go ahead and screw you over every chance I get.” I found myself crying way more than I ever have. Growing up … Continue reading What A Bitch
“Did you hear what happened to David?” My heart stopped when my friend asked me that on Monday because I knew the news would be horrible. Memories came flooding back before I could even process what was next…”He passed away in a motorcycle accident.” I didn’t let myself feel anything. Instead I focused on remembering every single moment of time I spent with him.
David was a friend. A good friend who I met when I was 17. We spent everyday together. We lost touch over the years, along with our group of friends from back then, but that didn’t erase the friendship we shared. He became family at one point, a brother. It all seems so long ago and the friends I have today didn’t know him. It was a friendship that grew apart and I regret it, which is a harsh reality I have to live with.
He had a smile that could light up an entire city. It was electric. It was contagious. It was beautiful. He was beautiful. He was funny, smart, charismatic, and my god he loved everyone. There was not a single person who met him that didn’t instantly bond with him. He always had a huge heart and it was never more prevalent than on October 27, 2015.
I went to the funeral that day (why this post is coming a day late). I got there just before 6pm and watched as his dad, brothers, friends, and mom tell stories about what a wonderful person he was. I watched his 3 year old son run around the chapel looking up every time someone spoke his name. His wife sang for him; it was majestic and heart wrenching.
More than all of that, there were easily over 100 people there (I’m sure a couple hundred couldn’t make it). That’s how many lives David touched in 25 years of life. That’s how many people he loved, and loved him.
I learned so much from him not only in life, but in death. He brought so much light when everything was dark. I strive to be more like that. We all need to be more like David. We owe it to ourselves, our friends, our family, and to him. Even if you never knew him.
Life is precious and so are the people in it. Rest In Peace my sweet friend.